FNL_INSPIRED Vol 2_Spring

26 INSPIRED VOL 2 I don’t remember what she said exactly, and I don’t think it really matters. The important thing is what hap- pened after I left: I raised my eyes to the dark and deep sky and saw a bright star above me. Overwhelmed, in that precise moment I perceived a sharp feeling of a fu- ture (and the idea that I actually would have one). That feeling remained with me on my way home, which was remarkable, since I had spent no more than an hour at her place. It was very late and quite dark both on my way there and back. But on my way there, I saw only darkness, while on my way back, all was light. I’m grateful for that encounter. This change in the course of my life exceeded my most daring expecta- tions. I have no regrets and often wonder what my life might have been if that hadn’t happened. It was my ini- tiation to what is hidden behind the curtains, and Tarot was my guide. More than eleven years have passed since that day. I have walked a very long path from my initial cautious interest, immersing myself in study as I filled my apart- ment with decks and Tarot literature. Eventually, I started my own practice and created my deck Insight Tarot . What initially was conceived as pure esoterica turned— as the years passed and I got trained as a psychologist— into a concentration of Jungian ideas. WHO, I WONDERED, IS THE TARGET AUDIENCE FOR SUCH A TAROT DECK? Insight Tarot is for those who find themselves inundated with a crisis of self-identity—who have lost their feeling of being alive in their own life, when the old model and vision of self and the world become obsolete. At that moment, one seeks for a new Source. And those who seek shall find. Eventually, we wake up from the dream where we are predetermined by our previous role. But we are not that role! Every one of us carries the knowledge of multidimen- sionality and spiritual depth within—it is the gift we all possess. The only problem is that access to it is blocked. Too many times we have been told who and what we should be: what “foolish” and “practical” are for us, where we should go and who we should become, and what we should relate to. We believed those telling us those things, and have sealed ourselves. And now life is identified with a social mask, a “persona”—kind of a tested, made-up pattern. It is comfortable, safe, and cus- tomary, but one day it becomes unbearably dull, then . . . depressing. Finally, life completely drains out. Then a human, so unbelievably complex and deep, flattens into a 2-D copy of a Divine Design he was once meant to be. “I GATHERED IN THE FACE OF BEAUTY INCOMPARABLE; SUDDENLY COLORLESS AND FLAT YOU BECAME.” —DON’T DO THIS TO YOURSELF!